Our much anticipated due date has come my friends and Mati didn't. At least not at 3:25pm today. We went to our midwife appointment and she did a membrane sweep and checked me. I am still 1cm dilated and 85% effaced. Honestly that isn't very reassuring since I have been the same over the past 3 weeks. The Midwife did say that she felt the water bag at the entrance of the cervix so it could mean that my water will break when I go into labor rather than having the midwife rupture it herself. She spent some extra time with us since no one showed for their appointments because of the weather.
I had asked her about induction since John will start working officially next week we hope and I want him to be here with me and spend some time with me and baby after Mati is born. She told me that the hospital policy is that you have to be at least 41weeks and then you have to have a good bishop score. Basically just inducing someone doesn't guarantee that you are going to have a baby or go into labor. Your cervix needs to be ripe and ready to take the induction. Otherwise you will just have some painful contractions without the actual labor starting. I have heard of women who were induced several times before they actually went into labor. I don't want that to happen. So I am really trying to be patient since Mati is coming on his own time and I can't rush it.
The midwives gave us some ideas on what to do to help with labor. The membrane sweep might help but she said that sex is really the best thing to help with starting labor. John is ok with that for sure. She also suggested castor oil which is a laxative- not going to do that since I don't need help in that department. I also heard about primrose tablets that you put next to your cervix and then using raspberry leaf tea. So tomorrow if labor doesn't begin then I am going to go and get some of those things to try out. With the weather being absolutely horrible we are stuck at home today. If I suddenly do go into labor then my grandpa will have to come pick us up in his Prius. He has it fully loaded with winter tires with studs on them and even snow chains for the tires.
I keep having day dreams and dreams at night about holding our son and caring for him. I know that motherhood is going to be everything I ever dreamed it to be. I am not naive enough to think its going to be a cake walk but I know that I was born to do this. This is my life's dream. I have always wanted to be a mom and now I cannot hardly wait. Many people wait to have kids but our life together would never be complete if we didn't have our kids now. This is what is best for us and I am so grateful that we are able to have our little one coming soon. Maybe by this weekend we will have our little baby boy in our arms rather than kicking my bladder.
John's aunt from Utah came to stay with us from Jan 13-30th to help with the birth and newborn baby. She has been such a blessing to us to have here. We are learning so much from here and it has been amazing. She is a spiritual giant and so full of love. She is a second mom to John and Ina and having her here has meant the world to them. She is really making our home so much brighter. I will be so sad to see her go home the end of the month.
So until we have our little baby boy I think this will be the last update that I post.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Want My Opinion
I dare say that I have a ton of opinions. It may surprise people that I actually don't just say everything that is on my mind. Shocker I know. But right now there are things that are going on that I just can't keep quiet about any longer.
My little family and I are Latter Day Saints. We go to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. We are Christians- NOT A CULT. We are not brainwashed. We believe in principles and have proved them to be true through our actions and seen the results. It makes me so mad when people- including my family- accuse me of following a religion blindly. Trust me when I say that I don't do anything just because someone tells me to do it. I have always done what I saw fit and didn't take well to being told otherwise. Why should it then surprise them when I choose to attend church, pay tithing, and hold prayers in my home? And Heaven Forbid I plan on teaching my children what I believe!!! I mean that is just torture to teach your children what you know and believe. Wait isn't that what being a parent is about. We teach our children how to walk, talk, eat, and socialize. Why not teach them also how to think for themselves and learn about our beliefs and knowledge of the gospel.
I understand that people do have problems with church. Not the religion exactly but the people that attend church. I don't believe you can judge a whole group of people or religion by the actions of a few. If that were the case we would have so many wars going on- more so than what there already are in the world. People are imperfect. If you want to know what I believe in then ask me. Don't accuse me of things you don't know anything about. Even if you were raised in the church and maybe even went to primary class or Sunday School and listened, it doesn't mean you know what you are talking about. There are the stories and lessons that are taught but it's the principles that should have been taken away from those things.
I don't for one second believe that someone's belief system can or should stem from the whole premise of attacking other people's beliefs. You say your an atheist and don't believe in God- Then why are you HELL BENT on attacking GOD or JESUS or the beliefs of others. What does Atheism mean to you? If you antagonize people's beliefs on purpose such as saying there is no God so why do you even go to church or pray- and then you proceed to give me your life long list of trials- what you are really saying is that you are Angry for what happened to you and you want someone to blame so you blame God. Not that you don't believe in him but that you are just angry with him and you think its your right to attack Him like He seems to attack you. Anger will only hurt YOU. Deal with your anger and maybe you will get to what you do believe and be happy. If you truly just want to hurt others because you are hurting, then maybe its time to grow up.
Reading this some people might get their panties in a twist because I am quite frank with what I think. But it does not prove that I am less of a Christian to want to Defend what I believe. You can believe what you want but don't proceed to attack what I hold so near and dear to my heart. I feel so hurt when people feel the need to belittle how I base my life choices and my beliefs. Seriously I just wish that people would just stop.
My little family and I are Latter Day Saints. We go to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. We are Christians- NOT A CULT. We are not brainwashed. We believe in principles and have proved them to be true through our actions and seen the results. It makes me so mad when people- including my family- accuse me of following a religion blindly. Trust me when I say that I don't do anything just because someone tells me to do it. I have always done what I saw fit and didn't take well to being told otherwise. Why should it then surprise them when I choose to attend church, pay tithing, and hold prayers in my home? And Heaven Forbid I plan on teaching my children what I believe!!! I mean that is just torture to teach your children what you know and believe. Wait isn't that what being a parent is about. We teach our children how to walk, talk, eat, and socialize. Why not teach them also how to think for themselves and learn about our beliefs and knowledge of the gospel.
I understand that people do have problems with church. Not the religion exactly but the people that attend church. I don't believe you can judge a whole group of people or religion by the actions of a few. If that were the case we would have so many wars going on- more so than what there already are in the world. People are imperfect. If you want to know what I believe in then ask me. Don't accuse me of things you don't know anything about. Even if you were raised in the church and maybe even went to primary class or Sunday School and listened, it doesn't mean you know what you are talking about. There are the stories and lessons that are taught but it's the principles that should have been taken away from those things.
I don't for one second believe that someone's belief system can or should stem from the whole premise of attacking other people's beliefs. You say your an atheist and don't believe in God- Then why are you HELL BENT on attacking GOD or JESUS or the beliefs of others. What does Atheism mean to you? If you antagonize people's beliefs on purpose such as saying there is no God so why do you even go to church or pray- and then you proceed to give me your life long list of trials- what you are really saying is that you are Angry for what happened to you and you want someone to blame so you blame God. Not that you don't believe in him but that you are just angry with him and you think its your right to attack Him like He seems to attack you. Anger will only hurt YOU. Deal with your anger and maybe you will get to what you do believe and be happy. If you truly just want to hurt others because you are hurting, then maybe its time to grow up.
Reading this some people might get their panties in a twist because I am quite frank with what I think. But it does not prove that I am less of a Christian to want to Defend what I believe. You can believe what you want but don't proceed to attack what I hold so near and dear to my heart. I feel so hurt when people feel the need to belittle how I base my life choices and my beliefs. Seriously I just wish that people would just stop.
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