I haven't written in super long so I wanted to get all caught up. First of all- I love being a mom. It's way better than I ever imagined. Even with the long nights where Mati won't sleep at all and fusses, I still love to just look at my baby boy and love on him. Snuggle time is a round the clock occurance at our home. I am now trying to be reasonable and allow others to snuggle him too so I can go cook or clean but I find that I just really want to hold him all the time. Our bed has become 3/4 Mati Space 3/16 Mommy Space and 1/16th Daddy Space. I think I did the math right and it actually equals 1. Basically John is squished in one small side of the bed. I didn't realize how little space my tough guy had until last night when I reached over and could actually feel the edge! He of course wouldn't have said anything or complained a bit but I decided that since Mati is now 1 month old it is time that he learn to sleep in his bassinet at night. It is after all a fabulous one. We successfully made it 2 hours straight in his bed after an hour of struggling to put him there... then the rest of the night was a bit more difficult with little sleep for us.
I start back at work either on March 1st or March 5th. I am waiting to see when my maternity benefits run out. I should look into that tomorrow- Should being the chosen word. I should also take a shower.... Ill get to that tonight :) I am proud of myself for getting all the laundry folded and put away yesterday. I feel like I am slowly coming into my own again. I even lost all the prego weight within a couple weeks thanks to a big baby and breast feeding. I thought it would take me forever and that was depressing but now I am happy to fit into jeans that were too snug just before I got prego. John and I are starting Weight Watchers after my 6 week postpartum visit which is next week! I am super excited because I know it works. I have to lose weight slower because of breast feeding but thats ok- I dont mind since its for Mati.
We discovered Mati is allergic to Milk just like John. the first 1 1/2 weeks we didn't notice anything which the Dr. said was normal- but then he had diarrhea really bad. Pour baby was a desitin butt baby for a 1 1/2 weeks before we found out it wasn't a cold and it was the Milk that I was drinking. So we cut it out of my diet and right away we noticed a difference. I am trying to have some dairy in yogurt randomly in the week so that he can start to build up a tolerance but nothing more than a small amount. The doctor told me to just avoid the liquid milk but not all dairy products so i am actually being more cautious than he told me to be- but thats because Im a mom! I love to say that :)
My new favorite thing about being a mom is being able to recognize what his different cries mean. I feel more in tune with Mati than ever and it feels great. I love that he recognizes my voice and will stop crying when John is changing him and I start talking to him. I love his smell and the way his eyes get all big when he sees something exciting- right now he loves to stare at this picture we have above our bed (don't know why since its not that exciting to me).
Mati seems to be taking more after me when it comes to his hair and skin color. He has dark Auburn hair (not orangie red thank goodness). He currently has olive colored skin. He might end up getting darker but being afakasi (mixed) he has plenty of variety to choose from in his gene pool. It does bother me though when people seem to question if John really is the dad. Maybe thats me reading too much into it but I have been asked more than once. If you just look at his face you would notice that Mati has John's eyes, ears, mouth, nose, chin, and hands. The kid has massive hands! Definately a future football pro in our midst.
I just love being a Mom and spending time with my precious baby. I am so grateful that with my job I work from home and get to be here even if I am working. John will be starting his job with Orkin in a few weeks we think so he will be able to be home with Mati all day until then while i work. And we have John's sister Ina with us who can help when I work ( I will be switching to an early shift and only working 30 hours so I wont be gone when Mati is awake). And my wonderful Aunt Summer is willing to be here after she drops her kids off at school so that when John is working she will be with Mati. I have the best family seriously.
Now I am off to enjoy more snuggle time with my son.
