I swear we never have a regular/normal situation. Maybe that is what is normal. John was officially laid off from work today. It was quite bitter sweet. It means we can finally move on and really pursue every possible lead. it has become more and more apparent that we need to focus on a career not just a job. We already started the process of getting John into school for welding at Bates Technical College. There is a wait list so we are trying to find work for him right now to help us get through the winter and school. Its definitely a process and a stressful one at that. But we do feel there is a purpose for all this. I read or heard somewhere that its best to have nothing when you are first married, than it is to be given everything. It helps you to grow as a couple. I can certainly attest to the growing part. We really value what we have and do not take things for granted.
At this point I will increase my work hours from 30 hours to 40 hours starting next week. Then if John doesn't get a stead job in the next week I am going to apply for a second job that's part time. if John is home with Mati I won't worry so much about him. Honestly I am willing to do whatever it takes to take care of our family. One thing that really hurts is when people judge John because of the lack of work. He means everything to me and when someone judges him it hurts me deeply and i want to strike back. It's not like he chose to not work. He was working between 40-60 hours per week at the high point, and now there isn't any jobs at Orkin for the next month and even after that. We do have one job lead that hopefully we hear back from soon about any position that may be open.
I just know it has to all work out. It always does so we just have to keep working at it. I have to stop being impatient and start accepting where we are right now instead of wishing things were different.
